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lagilmanThe thing about Crohns' is that nobody really 'has it' in the same way. I'm fortunate enough to be in remission most of the time, allowing me to almost* forget that I have this disease at all.
And then the Universe sees fit to remind me.
What annoys me the most about yesterday's flare-up is that I lost an entire afternoon/evening of work, which means that for the past few days I've only been able to work on two of the three major projects I have going. Since stress can worsen my symptoms, this also may be the Universe's way of saying "finish the first, then start the third, damn it, you're not Superwriter."
*grumble*
But, considering I have a double-handful of things to do in addition to the Three Majors Projects (including a short story I just agreed to write), this may be good advice.**
In fact, it's probably good advice for anyone: take on a a little more than you can handle -- that's good for you, and teaches you limits -- and how to move past them. But -- even in this crazy, "OMG we're all going to be out in the street unless we work constantly" days [and yeah, we're all feeling it], there's a point at which you have to stop, breathe, and find zen. At least for ten minutes
By finding Zen I don't mean slacking out or vegging in front of the television. I mean ten minutes in which you simply sit quietly and let everything inside you settle, consciously letting go of all the stress and worry and deadlines, and letting yourself be -- and taking note of where you are when you are being yourself. And yes, the irony of using an active tense to describe meditation is not lost on me, and may in fact be the point. This is not a passive meditation.
Breathe. Don't work. Don't consciously chase logic patterns or contemplate your toes. Just breathe and be. Feel out what's inside you, and where you want to go next.
And then go back to whatever needs doing.
*I have to be constantly aware of what I eat, since that can worsen a flare-up, but that's become part of my day-to-day routine and I barely notice it any more.
** this did not, of course, stop me from just now writing down all THREE major projects on my to-do list for the day. *facepalm*
And then the Universe sees fit to remind me.
What annoys me the most about yesterday's flare-up is that I lost an entire afternoon/evening of work, which means that for the past few days I've only been able to work on two of the three major projects I have going. Since stress can worsen my symptoms, this also may be the Universe's way of saying "finish the first, then start the third, damn it, you're not Superwriter."
*grumble*
But, considering I have a double-handful of things to do in addition to the Three Majors Projects (including a short story I just agreed to write), this may be good advice.**
In fact, it's probably good advice for anyone: take on a a little more than you can handle -- that's good for you, and teaches you limits -- and how to move past them. But -- even in this crazy, "OMG we're all going to be out in the street unless we work constantly" days [and yeah, we're all feeling it], there's a point at which you have to stop, breathe, and find zen. At least for ten minutes
By finding Zen I don't mean slacking out or vegging in front of the television. I mean ten minutes in which you simply sit quietly and let everything inside you settle, consciously letting go of all the stress and worry and deadlines, and letting yourself be -- and taking note of where you are when you are being yourself. And yes, the irony of using an active tense to describe meditation is not lost on me, and may in fact be the point. This is not a passive meditation.
Breathe. Don't work. Don't consciously chase logic patterns or contemplate your toes. Just breathe and be. Feel out what's inside you, and where you want to go next.
And then go back to whatever needs doing.
*I have to be constantly aware of what I eat, since that can worsen a flare-up, but that's become part of my day-to-day routine and I barely notice it any more.
** this did not, of course, stop me from just now writing down all THREE major projects on my to-do list for the day. *facepalm*
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Date: 2009-04-15 12:57 pm (UTC)I'll open the chat window in a minute here and we can do some work. :)