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One of the interesting joys of the current story-series is that I'm NOT writing a broken or restricted character - I'm writing a character who has gotten his shit together & is taking on a new, out-of-comfort-zone challenge because he chooses to.

Because the story doesn't end when the broken bits of a POV character are repaired/justified.  Interesting stuff happens after, too. And we don't have to break them a second or third time to make it interesting.

Kintsugi is about the repaired form as a whole, not just the golden seams.

This post possibly brought to you by reading too damn many "hero/ine is broken in order to BE the hero/ine" story.  Which are good and necessary stories, but not the only ones we should be telling.

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Watching "Some Kind of Spark" on PBS, and it is having the multiple effect of a) making me homesick, b) making me thoughtful about the ideas of passion, practice and perfection, and c) wishing once again that I were capable of reading music.

Watching kids realize that what they want is going to be a lifetime of hard work, internalize that knowledge, and then go after it, is a lovely thing.

(before anyone offers advice on c, don't. Dyscalculia makes reading music an exercise in nothing but frustration for me)
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Still I remember. Until I am no more, I will remember. 
Absent friends, and the friends we never got a chance to meet. The world that ended, and the world that became.

“Bear Witness”

Years pass, decades,
The revising measure of a lifetime
Entire; I stand here still,
Not stone not metal not fire but flesh
To bear the weight, to not fail nor fall some greater trust.
Rise into the skies and ne’er come down again.

© 2012, Laura Anne Gilman

(originally posted on

and for those for whom it may help, I write about dealing with the emotional and psychological aftermath for #Holdontothelight:

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 The West is still burning.  Texas is wringing out, but Florida is underwater.  Mexico is rattled.  The Northeast, I am told, is bracing for locusts.

(Joking.  Mostly.  Kinda.  Maybe.)

I'm writing again, after a summer of seemingly endless interruptions, but not as quickly as I'd like.  On the plus side, the Patreon story-series is flowing like crazy.  I guess it's true: sometimes you have to walk away from people (characters) to want to come back to them...

and ...Pietr, you spent way too much time in NYC.

"Nobody needed that kind of tsurus, without they were working off a lot of bad karma."


Sep. 3rd, 2017 07:26 am
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 I'm kind of failing at blogging here, aren't I?  The inability to connect this to my website blog and the Amazon feed is more of an irritation than I'd anticipated, and this seems to be falling behind Fb and Tumblr for ease of copy-and-paste.

Back in the PNW (did you notice I was gone?)

Trouble in Mind (and a new story-series!)

Meanwhile, this is a PSA for Americans:

This year’s enrollment period for ACA is short, November 1 to December 15.  

Also keep in mind that in addition to shortening the enrollment period, 45 has also slashed the budget for getting word out, so it’s up to us to get the word out.

Getting everyone in the US covered by ACA would REALLY piss 45 off.

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And I already have no brain left, after one day.  Oops.

And I still have a shitload to do tonight, both GISHy and work-related, so I'm going to inflict upon you a punny that requires a certain level of multi-denominational as well as fannish knowledge, but amuses the ever-loving fuck out of me, so I’m going to share anyway.

When I, I Jew, meet a Muslim friend, I say shalom, and they in turn say to me, salaam. At which point our Eastern Orthodox friend cries out, “now kiss!”

(I crack me up.)

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It is unseasonably, historically WRONG kind of warm here in the PNW, and some of us are handling it better than others.

Which is to say, most of us are whinging and sulking and moving as little as possible.

It doesn't help that there are also wildfires up north (in Canada) and southwest of here, and the smoke's come all the way down here to visit, too.

A lot of stuff tumbling around in my life right now, most of which either makes for boring blogging, or really can't be blogged about right now. So hey, have some promotional post!

LAWLESS LANDS: Tales from the Weird Frontier, which includes my story “Boots of Clay,” as well as stories from many other fine folk, is now available via Amazon, B&N or direct from the publisher.

From Whence You Came,” (Sea serpents, magicians, cranky scholars, and a Very Large Ooops!) is on sale for $1.99 this month at! SF Signal called it "a thoughtful examination of the consequences of magic”!

And, of course, there’s my Patreon - a new short story every month, for $1! (And the proceeds help keep my CatofSize in insulin).

and last, but certainly not least, THE DEATH OF ALL THINGS, the anthology edited by yours truly and Kat Richardson, is now available for pre-order on Kindle and Kobo! Plus, check out the gorgeous cover!





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 Reminder: if you're frustrated because I'm only doing one novel a year, you can get a MONTHLY fix of fiction via my Patreon....

A new short story guaranteed every month, for just $1, plus additional levels of Stuff!

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PNW summer joys: saffron salmon rice salad, made with smoked salmon I picked up from a local farmstand.

This shit's good enough, and pretty enough, to make it onto the list for my next dinner party, but also easy enough to be on the workday rotation....

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 Agent and editor notes are in, my own final markup is complete, and I have a mostly-clear deck for the next two weeks.

I'll be making a supply run this morning, and then settling in for the (hopefully) final pass of fixing-the-broken-things-hopefully-without-breaking-anything-new we laughingly call The Revisions Run.

A lot of stuff to be done, to get this book to where I need it to be. Agent and editor seem to think I've got this well in hand. I hope they're right.

But it has to be done by early August. Because GISHWHES is coming...
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Today's meeting has been postponed/cancelled, and I have taken this as a Sign that today's office should be the sofa, and I am not getting off it for love or money (unless amount of love or money is sufficient motivation for moving).

Also, I was awake at 4am and I can't even blame the cats for that - that's purely my own brain being an ass. On the plus side, the kitchen's clean and laundry's prepped for a reasonable hour to start the washing machine.

What do you do, when you accept that you're awake too damn early? 
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 With everything else going on in the world, conversation this weekend seemed mostly centered on the Rattlesnake Hills fires, with a side note of the Mitchell fire in Wenatchee, and the Alamo fire in California (specifically, the ones where vineyards/wineries are at risk as well as homes, because this was industry conversation).

Main suspected causes of the fires? Human. Odds of them being from assholes setting off firecrackers in dry conditions over the 4th? High.

I'd say some people just can't resist making bad situations worse, but the truth is, these people don't put that much thinking into it. Pretty sure they're not putting much thinking into ANYTHING.

When the future writes humanity's obit, cause of death will probably be "terminal dumbassedness."

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 awwwwww.... someone finally left a review of DARKLY HUMAN on Goodreads!

Katie said, "I have been a happy reader of Laura Ann Gilman (sic) since I first discovered her, but this collection of stories increased my admiration of her skill. Short stories require a different crafting than novels, and these are diverse and powerful nuggets. At one point I forgot these were all Gilman's and actually looked to see who had written each story, as if this was an anthology. Highly recommended and very tasty!"

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So, coming home from the fireworks n Tuesday, I was caught in stop-and-stop traffic for about ten minutes when I noticed there was white smoke rising from the hood.  I cut the engine and trie to convince traffic to go around me, to limited success, until some folk came by to help push me off the side of the road, and help me figure out what the issue was - but seeing as how it was nearly midnight, on a dark road, there wasn't much I could do.  So I locked the car up, and called a Lyft to get home (about a 12 mile ride).

And then called a Lyft the next morning (yay morning commute surge pricing, oy) before the cops could decide the car (clearly marked "breakdown, please do not tow" on the dash) needed to be impounded.

Thanks to the long-distance aid of Jim C, mechanic-on-call, I was able to determine that yes, there was coolant leaking, and figure out the approximate location of said leak, although not the specifics (huzzah for small hands and elbows that bend, when you need to reach onto the guts of a (cooled) car engine.  But that required being towed to a repair place (since the one I'd called that morning never got back to me), and cooling my heels for several hours until they told me the extent (and cost) of the damage.


I am very tempted to do a "one month, one shot, if we hit $X I will give you guys a novella" car repair fundraiser - except between my patreon and the novel revisions and the new book, I just on't have the story-brain for it.

I wonder how much one slightly-used liver would go for on the black market?


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Happy Independence day, fellow US citizens (and welcome to everyone taking their oath today!  We think you’re kinda crazy, but welcome home anyway!)

This, by the way, is what it’s all about.

In Congress, July 4, 1776.

The unanimous Declaration of the thirteen united States of America, When in the Course of human events, it becomes necessary for one people to dissolve the political bands which have connected them with another, and to assume among the powers of the earth, the separate and equal station to which the Laws of Nature and of Nature’s God entitle them, a decent respect to the opinions of mankind requires that they should declare the causes which impel them to the separation.

We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.–That to secure these rights, Governments are instituted among Men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed, –That whenever any Form of Government becomes destructive of these ends, it is the Right of the People to alter or to abolish it, and to institute new Government, laying its foundation on such principles and organizing its powers in such form, as to them shall seem most likely to effect their Safety and Happiness. Prudence, indeed, will dictate that Governments long established should not be changed for light and transient causes; and accordingly all experience hath shewn, that mankind are more disposed to suffer, while evils are sufferable, than to right themselves by abolishing the forms to which they are accustomed. But when a long train of abuses and usurpations, pursuing invariably the same Object evinces a design to reduce them under absolute Despotism, it is their right, it is their duty, to throw off such Government, and to provide new Guards for their future security.–Such has been the patient sufferance of these Colonies; and such is now the necessity which constrains them to alter their former Systems of Government. The history of the present King of Great Britain is a history of repeated injuries and usurpations, all having in direct object the establishment of an absolute Tyranny over these States. To prove this, let Facts be submitted to a candid world.

He has refused his Assent to Laws, the most wholesome and necessary for the public good.

He has forbidden his Governors to pass Laws of immediate and pressing importance, unless suspended in their operation till his Assent should be obtained; and when so suspended, he has utterly neglected to attend to them.
He has refused to pass other Laws for the accommodation of large districts of people, unless those people would relinquish the right of Representation in the Legislature, a right inestimable to them and formidable to tyrants only.
He has called together legislative bodies at places unusual, uncomfortable, and distant from the depository of their public Records, for the sole purpose of fatiguing them into compliance with his measures.

He has dissolved Representative Houses repeatedly, for opposing with manly firmness his invasions on the rights of the people.

He has refused for a long time, after such dissolutions, to cause others to be elected; whereby the Legislative powers, incapable of Annihilation, have returned to the People at large for their exercise; the State remaining in the mean time exposed to all the dangers of invasion from without, and convulsions within.

He has endeavoured to prevent the population of these States; for that purpose obstructing the Laws for Naturalization of Foreigners; refusing to pass others to encourage their migrations hither, and raising the conditions of new Appropriations of Lands.

He has obstructed the Administration of Justice, by refusing his Assent to Laws for establishing Judiciary powers.

He has made Judges dependent on his Will alone, for the tenure of their offices, and the amount and payment of their salaries.

He has erected a multitude of New Offices, and sent hither swarms of Officers to harrass our people, and eat out their substance.

He has kept among us, in times of peace, Standing Armies without the Consent of our legislatures.

He has affected to render the Military independent of and superior to the Civil power.

He has combined with others to subject us to a jurisdiction foreign to our constitution, and unacknowledged by our laws; giving his Assent to their Acts of pretended Legislation:

For Quartering large bodies of armed troops among us:

For protecting them, by a mock Trial, from punishment for any Murders which they should commit on the Inhabitants of these States:

For cutting off our Trade with all parts of the world:

For imposing Taxes on us without our Consent:

For depriving us in many cases, of the benefits of Trial by Jury:

For transporting us beyond Seas to be tried for pretended offences

For abolishing the free System of English Laws in a neighbouring Province, establishing therein an Arbitrary government, and enlarging its Boundaries so as to render it at once an example and fit instrument for introducing the same absolute rule into these Colonies:

For taking away our Charters, abolishing our most valuable Laws, and altering fundamentally the Forms of our Governments:

For suspending our own Legislatures, and declaring themselves invested with power to legislate for us in all cases whatsoever.

He has abdicated Government here, by declaring us out of his Protection and waging War against us.

He has plundered our seas, ravaged our Coasts, burnt our towns, and destroyed the lives of our people.

He is at this time transporting large Armies of foreign Mercenaries to compleat the works of death, desolation and tyranny, already begun with circumstances of Cruelty & perfidy scarcely paralleled in the most barbarous ages, and totally unworthy the Head of a civilized nation.

He has constrained our fellow Citizens taken Captive on the high Seas to bear Arms against their Country, to become the executioners of their friends and Brethren, or to fall themselves by their Hands.

He has excited domestic insurrections amongst us, and has endeavoured to bring on the inhabitants of our frontiers, the merciless Indian Savages, whose known rule of warfare, is an undistinguished destruction of all ages, sexes and conditions.

In every stage of these Oppressions We have Petitioned for Redress in the most humble terms: Our repeated Petitions have been answered only by repeated injury. A Prince whose character is thus marked by every act which may define a Tyrant, is unfit to be the ruler of a free people.

Nor have We been wanting in attentions to our Brittish brethren. We have warned them from time to time of attempts by their legislature to extend an unwarrantable jurisdiction over us. We have reminded them of the circumstances of our emigration and settlement here. We have appealed to their native justice and magnanimity, and we have conjured them by the ties of our common kindred to disavow these usurpations, which, would inevitably interrupt our connections and correspondence. They too have been deaf to the voice of justice and of consanguinity. We must, therefore, acquiesce in the necessity, which denounces our Separation, and hold them, as we hold the rest of mankind, Enemies in War, in Peace Friends.

We, therefore, the Representatives of the united States of America, in General Congress, Assembled, appealing to the Supreme Judge of the world for the rectitude of our intentions, do, in the Name, and by Authority of the good People of these Colonies, solemnly publish and declare, That these United Colonies are, and of Right ought to be Free and Independent States; that they are Absolved from all Allegiance to the British Crown, and that all political connection between them and the State of Great Britain, is and ought to be totally dissolved; and that as Free and Independent States, they have full Power to levy War, conclude Peace, contract Alliances, establish Commerce, and to do all other Acts and Things which Independent States may of right do. And for the support of this Declaration, with a firm reliance on the protection of divine Providence, we mutually pledge to each other our Lives, our Fortunes and our sacred Honor.

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Hi, July. Another month of Holy Shit So Much to Do. I am contemplating backing out of some tentative-not-yet-firmed commitments (work and other), but I'm not sure if that's Common Sense speaking, or Inertia....

Also, I had a morning migraine (a mild stabbity in the brainpan), and decisions are probably not best made under those condition, yeah?


Anyway, the Imitrex was at a small enough dose to not make me throw up, but not quite enough to kill the migraine, so it made itself at home just above my ears and periodically stabbed me with a frozen-hot icepick.  I made it through the work-day nonetheless.  Pretty sure none of our guests realized I was one loud noise away from killing them...

(thankfully, the small child who came in with their parents toward the end of shift  was delightful, and quiet.)

I really should finish off the two pending editing-things tonight before I pass out.

I probably won't, tho.

I should probably go stare at something dinner-like...


Jun. 29th, 2017 03:17 pm
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 For reasons, I just came face to face with realization of how long it's been since I took an actual vacation.  And by "vacation" I don't mean "total relaxation" but "any time that was not at least 70% working."

Three years.  The only time in all that that could even be considered a vacation was the road trip to Yellowstone, and that was at LEAST 80% of me being "okay, what do I need to do/see/learn for the book?" rather than "hey, this looks like fun."

No wonder I'm so damn run down.

And my plans for a birthday trip have been tabled once again, for the combined reasons of work-needs, finance, and political uncertainty, yay.

There's a lot taking a "mental health day" can do.  But only for so long.

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Or rather, I'm an excellent social media correspondent, but it's not always hitting here.  And I've yet to figure out how to connect this blog to my main one... 

Lawless Lands is On the Loose!

Changements de latitudes, changements d'attitude

A little Devil's West Updatery

Meanwhile, my sister and brother-in-law and his mother were in town for a family member's 90th birthday party, so it was good to see them and all the mishpocha (extended family of blood and marriage) from his side.  The weather was warm (HOT, by Seattle standards) but they seemed to be enjoying it.  I took one day off to play semi-local tour guide, and then hid in the tasting room all weekend.  You have to keep wineries/tasting rooms cool, to keep the wine stored in back (much of it in barrels) cool.  A useful hint, next time you get stuck in a heat wave....

Busy week ahead.  Thankfully, temps are supposed to drop 15-20 degrees back to Seattle-normal by tomorrow.  And not a moment too soon...
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 So, I spent the a few days in the (VERY COLD) Oregon woods, sleeping in a tent and cooking over an open flame (ok, and using those nifty jetpackish water heaters for coffee), reminding myself about the Importance of Civilization, and came home to the discover that the trade paper reprint of THE COLD EYE  (1/18) is up on Amazon for pre-order!

Amazon US / Amazon Canada / Amazon UK /

(as soon as other outlets have it up, I'll do the formal and important "where to buy everywhere" update for those of us who prefer to buy elsewhere)

But this means I can (finally!) show you the nifty new cover by artist Emma Rios, who did an amazing job capturing so much of the Devil's West in one illustration....

(seriously: I gasped when I first saw the sketch.  As much as I loved the first take by Palencar, showing us Izzy in all her glorious non-Anglo self, this hits the spirit of the Territory, dead on.)


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And no, I have no idea if they will be repackaging SILVER ON THE ROAD as well.  Nobody tells the author nuthin' until it's already underway....

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 From Consumer Reports’ “On Health” magazine, this month:

“Last summer an American Psychological Association survey found that our overall stress levels were going down - part of an encouraging national trend.  But a follow-up survey in early January showed a troubling change... 'We saw the first statistically significant spike in ten years.'”



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